Should I stay or should I go?

Hello. The past three years of my life have been the most bittersweet years ever. My best friend was shot n killed then 3 months later I got pregnant. I'm 23 years old with a 10 month old little girl. During this time I have completed 1.5 years of higher learning at the art institute of las Vegas, whom kicked me out for becoming a credit risk. (I missed a payment on a credit card) so Im looking at $120,000.00 student loans 51 non-transferrible credits. My baby daddy has been with me strong the past two years. I have found out he is a felon for shooting a guy who was jumping him with five other dudes. The gun was registered, but he was drinking a little.(he was shot and did 4 years in prison with a hefty fine). It's been over ten years now he is 33. The problem I'm facing with him is he does not have citizenship in America. During the Khmer Genocide in Cambodia he came to America seeking refuge from the mass murders. He was running from bombs-lost a lot of family. When I look at his background it's easy to see how someone would pull a trigger having personally been in war at a young age. He has a court order to be deported back to Cambodia, yeah right when I fall in love something puts me to the ultimate test. Can I blue eyed blonde girl live in Cambodia with a baby safely? I need to do what's right, I love him and know that he is still alive and just knowing that he's breathing is enough to keep me fighting for peace. Why is America this bad? I'm just exhausted from the drama...